The entry below was first written in 1 December 2008 on my Multiply blog.

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I have just finished my contract last week. Yes, I am, for the nth time, jobless again. Okay, it depends on how you look at it. So, I used the above title instead of "Bumming Holidays". Anyways, I won't be really bumming.

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The last few weeks of my contract was sooo hectic. I go to work at least at 9.00, sometimes at 8.30. (I can't be there earlier! I'm not amorning person.) And I stay at until around 8.30 to 9.00. Whew! Ganun kadaming trabaho. And I know it would be busy at the conference center in Poznan, Poland. How I'd wish I was there. I know it would be so interesting. On the other hand, I guess it's okay kasi sobrang lamig na dun. Dito pa nga lang nilalamig na ako, dun pa kaya.

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I'm currently listening to JumpStart at RX 93.1 via internet. I haven't tuned in them in awhile since two new colleagues joined me in the room. I have a big room, probably the biggest in the floor, because our team needs around three people to register delegates. I missed RX Monsters' Riot and Chico and Del's Top Ten tuloy. I can listen to it now at home though, now that I have moble internet for my laptop. Weeee!!!

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About my colleagues, one girl is from Russia and the other guy is Norwegian-German. Okay naman kaya lang hindi satisfying ang trabaho nila.

Yung babae, panay yosi tapos sho-shonga-shonga pa. Babagal-bagal kumilos at ang mga tanong, puro "duh!!!". Tapos kapag nagtatanong ang 'yung isang kasama namin, sasagot siya bago ko pa man masagot ang tanong na para bang alam niyang lahat tapos hindi naman.

'Yung lalaki naman, okay ang trabaho, mabilis at sigurado sa ginagawa. Kaya lang bugnutin dahil minsan nakakainis ang communications na ibinibigay sa amin ng mga participants. Kaya lang masyado niyang pinupulahan ang mga nag-re-register at tinatanong kung ano gagawin nila sa conference. Okay, may mga taong hindi mo nga alam kung ano ang gagawin dun. Pero don't be harsh with the students and the young activist dahil maganda nga na aktibo sila sa usapin laban sa climate change. Natutuwa ako na gumagawa sila ng paraan para matuto at malaman ang mga bagay-bagay ukol dito. Besides, hindi namin trabaho 'yun. Ang dapat naming gawin ay mag-register.

Sana next time, huwag na silang kunin.

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Speaking of work, I still got some part time kaya may income pa naman ako. Saka someone offered me a new part-time job kaya may extra income ako at may pagkaka-abalahan na. It was offered to me on my last day. Freelance din kaya okay lang at maluwag sa schedule. It's indeed a blessing.

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In the last two weeks of my cotract, nagkaroon ng weather disturbance dito. Sobrang lamig niya, as in nag-snow na. I must admit, I liked seeing the snow at sobrang nakakatuwang maglakad habang bumabagsak ito. Ayaw ko lang ng lamig.

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Nagbukas na ang Weihnachtsmarkt o Christmas Market. Malapit na nga ang Pasko. Pero to be honest, hindi ako excited compared last year. Sabagay, umuwi ako last year kaya mas masaya ako. Mas emo siguro ang Pasko ko ngayon. hehehe.

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Speaking of Christmas, I have bought Christmas balls and Christmas light to decorate my little Christmas tree. Wala lang, I just want my pad to have some holiday look. I think I still have to add some more decos. Hindi pa feel ang Christmas eh. hehehe

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I read The Christmas Candle by Max Lucado. It is a nice book, a book that makes you feel better and light-hearted after reading. I made it as the "Feature of the Month" in the Community Library. Tapos kelangan nilang mag-deposit ng €3 para siguradong isasauli nila on time. Tapos, kung sakto nilang isasauli, may gift sila from the library.

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Inspired by "The Chrstmas Candle", I thought of buying candles as gifts this Christmas. I'll be going around the city to buy some and look for some small stuff to decorate it. Now, I'm excited about Christmas.

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Tapos, dahil may project ako to buy SuperBook and The Flying House DVDs for the kids to borrow in the library. I have told them that I will donate three book from my collection of Paulo Coelho in the library for every €10 that they will donate. Yesterday, They have donated €38.50. So, goodbye Paulo Coelho. Kaunti na lang, wala na akong libro ni Coelho.

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I'm thinking of buying a new phone as a Christmas gift for myself. I'm not really buying soemthing fancy. I just want a new one to replace my old phone. I just need a phone with a good memory and camera. I'm not a tech geek anyways. I also want to buy a new webcam, malabo kasi ang webcam ko, parang ako minsan.

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Kung si Santa Claus ang magbibigay ng wish ko, siguro ibibigay niya 'yun sa akin kasi naging mabait naman ako. Pero since, permanent job ang hanap ko, malamang na ang ibigay niyang trabaho at taga-gawa ng laruan kasama ng mga Christmas elves niya. huhuhu

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I'm praying... and believing it will come true, to have a permanent job the soonest. I want to have one but most of all I need it, not just for myself but for my family as well. Dear God, help me. You know my intentions. Please hear me. This is my Christmas wish...

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Call this coinsidence! After I click the "Save & Publish" button on the Compose Blog Entry page, I was disconnected from the internet. While restarting connection, I went to the toilette and found a missed call from my supervisor as I sat in front of my laptop. I called her and and received a text message from her asking for my P11 form (CV from in the organization). When she answered the phone, she told me that, in her own words, "Ibebenta kita!". Apparently, a colleague has told her of a vacancy, I supposed or there would be one.

I shed some tears. I know there are no guarantees and this doesn't speak of a job. Just a chance. I'm also not expecting anything.

I cried because, I know and I believe, that even if God is not giving me the job I've been wishing for, He has given me hoped by receiving this information. This is, as in The Alchemist said, an omen.

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Thank you, God, for always being there. And most especially for giving me hope at the time I'm losing it. I know you have palnned something for me. Please give me the patience, for I know it won't come on my time but in Yours.

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Indeed, I was correct for replacing the title from "Bumming Holidays" to "Jo/blessed Holidays!"